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| doing okay i guess. in a weird state but could be worse. i think i must have been too disproportionately happy for a second there i had to get nerfed but i'll live. did you know i'm 20 years of age and have absolutely zero form of state issued identification so i can't do anything at all without my parents express permission and support? 21 in january. ha ha ha ha ha. ha. homeschooling is almost always a very very very bad idea. people think it's only bad if done by religous zealots or whatever but the simple truth is it's a bad idea. i would know. my parents want me to learn how to drive with nothing but a pdf of a handbook because drivers ed is a "waste of money". how do you even explain how bad of an idea that is to someone if they seriously don't already get it? much less if that person(s) control your entire livelihood.. anyways replayed undertale for the first time in a while. even knowing it like the back of my hand just a few years of separation and it still gets me. well. i cried to undertale music so i guess we all know where i'm going........ i think i want to try making a multiple page comic at some point but i'm a deeply impatient and perfectionist type so it's hard lol 10/17/24 1:58AM |
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things getting worse. my parents are cutting me off the phone plan because we had a fight and internet is sporadic. working on trying to get my life started and out from under their thumb while also getting back in good graces but it is hard. i don't really want to overshare but talking helps me calm down a bit. updates will probably be weird for the foreseeable future but they have already been pretty few and far between. mostly just trying to exist without constantly feeling so scared it's making me physically ill. 9/29/24 8:02PM |
 morgrem btw 9/23/24 9:34PM |
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have had a No Good Very Bad week in that i injured my shoulder, got covid, injured my hip the second my shoulder was better, and now i'm just walking on eggshells hoping ANOTHER one of my joints doesn't decide to turn on me while i deal with the covid. on the bright side i'm going to dye my hair once i'm better. have been bingewatching inanimate insanity whilst bedridden and almost got to the end of season 3 but gave up because it sucked too bad. the random anti-ai art soapboxing was my last straw i cannot do this shit anymore. well thank god there's more season 2. still baffled that they did season 3 in the middle of season 2 but whatever at least i get relief. i'm an outsider looking in i will admit it. seriously the "generative ai is EVIL" bandwagon makes me ashamed to be a "real" artist sometimes. i don't want to be associated with you petty bourgeois fuckers... intellectual property is a scourge on the human race WHEN are we ever going to realize how stupid it is to pretend you can own ideas. "art style theft", "color palette theft", "pose theft", it's no wonder you idiots can't take five seconds to look into how stable diffusion actually works, it's more convenient to point at a threat and go "THEFT!! PLAIGARISM!! COLLAGE MACHINE!!" the same way you do when any other artist encroaches on your niche. y'all are deranged. at least it's a good litmus test for reactionary tendencies and critical thinking skills. not to mention "the environmental impact" handwringing is just an attempt to draw false equivalencies to cryptocurrency when generative ai has jack shit to do with the manufactured scarcity and overuse of electricity baked into crypto's whole deal. well THIS technology was bad so this one is evil in the same way probably. luddite jackasses. i'm not even going to entertain the shit about "human spirit" or "soul". you sound catholic. nor the elitist and usually some level of ableist "just pick up a pencil" shit. GOD y'all are embarrassing. it just keeps repeating itself. photography isn't art and it's lazy and it's soulless and it's stealing our jobs! and the world was improved for it's existence. digital art isn't art and it's lazy and it's soulless and it's stealing our jobs! and the world was improved for it's existence. generative ai isn't art and it's lazy and it's soulless and it's stealing our jobs! and so on and so on and so on. selfishly prioritizing the vain belief that one day you too can become a rich and famous artist and pull the ladder up behind you as did the ones before you. it's not going to happen. it was never going to happen. capitalism will kill us all and you're complaining about technological advancement instead of the root problem. Again. we're never making it out of here. man i'm rambling. i'm passionate about this stuff. i can't stand that people will bully average joe shmoes for the grand crime of using a website to make a pretty picture and claim it's for the benefit of all artists. bitch we are not friends!!! don't drag me into your dumbass moral crusade. well whatever. 9/23/24 9:27PM |
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getting sick again i think. there always has to be something... have been doing good lately otherwise. grand festival was probably the best splatfest but how has it been 2 years and people still do not know how to play tricolor... i feel a little bad for team future lol. i just hope we return to 2 teams in splatoon 4 if and when it comes into existence. accidentally stayed up until 5 in the fucking morning dicking around on call with my friend after playing for a while (hi gerry) which was a lot of fun but i have to rectify my sleeping once more. i think my social skills have been improving lately which is good but also a little scary for reasons that are difficult to explain. and of course i am becoming ill the second i was beginning to crawl out of art block... i am rambling but in my defense my brain is not working at maximum efficiency 9/18/24 10:31PM |
acquired frozen macarons today. tasty. also some pokemon cards.      my favorite pokemon btw. not in order. morgrem is my alltime favorite. he's such a cutiepie... i'm an enjoyer of middle evos 5ever 9/11/24 6:53PM |
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end of summer, early fall always seems to leave me art blocked. september should be cold i think but it never is. pain in the ass. did you know we have robins now? we didn't used to. they used to be further north but they're here now. i saw a bunch of big carrion birds in the road today. the family cat's ashes were returned in a fancy engraved box with a little lock and keys. they gave us wildflower seeds to plant in his memory. i still haven't cried about it but i think i have a weird response to grief. i got close at least so i know i care. the world keeps spinning. i've started taking melatonin gummies and discovered the secret to making melatonin work is simply taking it at the same time every night. i can't drink as much tea as i want to though. but what else is new. today i came across some music i like but not much information available in english which is probably to be expected. the artist is nezhnoe eto. the internet is nice i think because you can just find stuff like this you probably never would've otherwise. listening while i write this. i've run out of steam now though so i think this entry is over. i need to write here more if i want to get this one done by 2025. isn't that scary.. 5 years into the 2020s already. time stops for no one or whatever. but the idea of having this page spread between 2024 and 2025 pisses me off so i would like to prevent this. expect more rambling on about nothing i guess 9/10/24 1:36PM |
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